And then we’ll get down there, way down to the very bottom of everything, and we'll see it.

I just closed my eyes and when I opened them I was hoping I'd be at home in bed. No such luck. I've been in the library since two studying for my test, which is an hour. I'm taking a small intermission, my brain hurts, I can only read about different rocks and minerals for so long. After the test it's straight to work (where I will be late), and home at three am. It's a long day, but I cannot complain because there is no doubt that I am absolutley desperate for the money. I can't even imagine one day not having to worry about money, is that even possible?

Oh well. Things are good and I can't complain too much. I have one constant fear I'd like to demolish the shit out of, but other than that I'm solid.

over & out.

"We must stare into a crystal ball and only see the past, and in the caverns of tomorrow, with just our flashlights and our love, we must plunge."

Good afternoon! I'm currently sitting in the public library (for the second time today) during my two hour and forty five minute break between classes. So what's new other than it smelling like hippies in here? Well...

My Art Education professor passed back our first test today. I received 100%. Needless to say, I was thrilled, and this should obviously call for some sort of a celebration. Taking this class I feel like I have fully became dedicated to the idea of becoming an art teacher, however I'm still going to give it a little bit longer to decide. I have to make up a lesson and actually do it in a classroom, I think after this my decision will be made clear either way.

So, let's continue with these good time that are rolling. 100% on a test, and my uncle bob fixed my laptop for me last week, so I have to go pick that up Thursday. yay! More important and also good...no, great, things include visiting with some of my family this weekend. I can't wait! I wish I had a digital camera though. Bummer. Also great, Bryan and I are going to go see Andrew Bird perform in Kalamazoo on Sunday. I'm really excited. I don't think I've gone to a performance such as this since I went to see Kate Nash in Chicago in May 2008. I think.

My new house is nice. I like it a lot, things seem to be going really well (aside from one of the cats, Bella, getting sick :( ).

Well, I suppose it's time to do some work. I'm staving and won't be home to eat for at least five hours. AWESOME!

Oh, I lost my flashdrive when I was in the library earlier and no one handed it in to lost and found. sad faces.


xoxo.
liz

solitude on a sunday night.

After a busy day at work this evening I popped open a Magic Hat Circus Boy (the hefeweizen, which is probably my favorite of the magic hats) and the bottle cap said "The answer is inside you." It's somewhat sad it came from a beer bottle cap, but it was refreshing to read, and I didn't know it until I did read it, but it is what I needed to hear. Thanks magic hat!

On a very different note, I began packing up my room today. I'll be sad to leave this apartment (despite the mice). It's such a cute apartment, and has a huge bathroom. However, I'm excited to move into something that I can feel more at home in. I look forward to not having to tip-toe around in fear that I will piss off my landlord living below me (and I won't have to hear his dog bark anymore). We're throwing down our deposit tomorrow, and then hopefully we can begin moving in almost immediately. I'm excited to have off street parking, a garage, a new washer and dryer, a fire place, a dishwasher and garbage disposal again (yay!), and a wall painted with chalk board paint! Oh, and a giant porch. Okay, I'm just really stoked for the house in general.

I'm looking forward to this coming Saturday, it's my cousin's wedding. I'm looking forward to seeing some family I haven't seen since Christmas (like my Grandpa), and seeing my dad. I haven't seen him in almost a month, which is the longest I have gone without seeing him in years. Work and school are taking up too much of my time.

Yesterday I went thrift shopping, I bought an old school science in the elementary class book, a purse, and a really pretty scarf. Grand total: $2.94. You can't beat that! Oh, and it was some church thrift store so they threw in a little book in hopes to guide me to follow the word of the lord. No thanks.

This is quite the ramble, I'm going to finish my beer and make some flash cards for my geology test on Thursday. Gotta love studying! Wish me luck.

xoxo.

You know when you've found it, because you feel it when they take it away.

Currently I am enjoying the auroma of vanilla inscents, and sipping an always delicious cup of lemon and honey black tea (which latley I pretty much find myself living off of). I woke up this morning at 7:30am, a rarity. I'm thinking it was because of the really creepy dream I had about a little boy keeping hairless rats in his bed. These rats had red skin and were absolutley disgusting. Terrible dream.





Today I filled out an application for a new house to move in with Melissa, Carrie and Jen. The house is adorable, and most importantly rent is 200 dollars less a month. I'm hoping everything works out well with that, and we are able to get the place! But i don't want to jinx it by getting to excited about it.


http://american-realty.net/PropertyDetail.aspx?id=117





Other non important (but exciting for me, none the less) news: I updated my iPhone today for the first time since I got it. It can do really fancy things now, and I'm very stoked for it...pretty much like I have a new phone.

Ta-ta for now, time to get ready for another day of work. xoxo.

Chin up!

I made this blog almost a year ago, and have finally decided to utilize it...although I'm not sure I'll have anything too interesting to share with the masses. Here goes nothing, folks!...

I'm not even quite sure where to begin. My life as of late has been really wonderful, and also a complete and utter mess. Last week I was going through the millions of pictures that I have from past years. Whenever I'm looking at old pictures I find myself getting nostalgic for the past. I'm not quite sure what about the past is so appealing, I still had issues I had to over come everyday, however for the most part all of the pictures I do have are filled with smiles, distant faces, and enjoyable times to say the least. I need to take more pictures, I want to be able to look back and remember what good times I am having right now. Because for the most part times are really good, don't let me fool you.

Although as I stated times have been really good, nothing can ever be perfect, can it? Finances are tight, we have mice living in our apartment, my gas tank is on empty, and a very important person in my life (to say the least) is now embarking on an everyday struggle that I cannot make go away. I try not to think about it, but I guess I have to deal with it at some point. It wasn't until I recently heard the fear in his voice, and the jokes being pushed aside that it really hit me...this isn't going to go away. When I was a kid, even up until the deaths of my Grandma and Grandpa, I never thought anyone in my family would become ill. It always seemed to be something that happened to everyone elses families, but not mine. Sometimes I wish I was still that niave, because I have no idea how the hell to handle this. When I allow myself to actually think about the seriousness of the situation that has fallen into the laps of my family I feel scared shitless. Maybe that's why I felt nostalgic for my past as I was looking at those old photos, he wasn't sick and I was still niave.

In closing: I'm listening to Radiohead (Let Down from the OK Computer album to be precise), and whenever I do I feel emotions that I have never felt at any other time in my life. It's refreshing, it's one of those songs where I can just close my eyes and not think about anything else that's going on. Give it a go, it's my suggestion for the day.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M_wGLZmwZ8o

P.S. I didn't really touch too much base on the good I've been experencing in everyday life, but I'm enjoying my life as much as I can right now. And another complelty different note, Ryan and Courtney are leaving for France on Monday for quite a few months. Two of my closest friend are leaving and I'm sad!